from 2009 to 2010

HAPPY, HEALTHY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY.
I LOVE YOU ALL. THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE. I FOUND AN OLD FRIEND AFTER 42 YEARS. WHO IS LIVING IN THE PERUVIAN ANDES. WHAT A BLESSING. WOW. I AM SO BLESSED.
LIGHTS OF LOVE COMING FROM ALL OVER HEALS MY BONES AND WARMS MY HEART. HAPPY 2010.
PHILLY IS FEELING FULL OF LOVE FOR 2010.

Christmas Greetings

I have a list of folks, all written in a book. And every year at Christmas time I go and take a look. And that is when I realize that these names are a part. Not of the book they're written in, but of my very heart.
For each name stands for someone whose path touched mine, and then Left such a print of friendship that I want to touch again. And while it sounds fantastic for to make a claim, I really feel I am composed of each remembered name.
And while you may not be aware of any special link Just meeting you has shaped my life more then you can think. For once you've met somebody, the years cannot erase The memory of a pleasant word or of a friendly face. You are on a list of folks that I am indebted to. THE BIGGEST GIFT of life can give is MEETING FOLKS LIKE YOU.

He looks like a Viking

HAPPY HANUKKAH to all my special friends. Thanks giving and peaceful meadowlarks. For the coming year.

Hi Grandma I still have it and I am 7 years old

Baby's First Christmas

Baby's 1st christmas, From Grandma

IF I BRING FORTH WHAT IS INSIDE ME, WHAT I BRING FORTH WILL SAVE ME.

filly ga ga Moira spice girl and Shirley song remembered

Pat Reynolds and filly ga ga do do

I beat her with my funny hat. But she will top it at Christmas caroling if I know her. haha

Dinono Dynamite 007 and Filly ga ga do do

Don't we make a team effort of flying support?

Moira and I

She sees me and pleases me by her strength and character.

Pot Luck Party 2009

News cometh chanting produces calm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSXPbv76RjA
This is the only way that matters.

Thankfulness in Giving

These are the days of memories revisited and relived in your heart. Tears come in praise of days spent in sadness and laughter. Let us give Thankfulness for all we have known that is unknown today. The smells, the richness and the glory in the highest. The Peace of the Holiest Night. Blessings prepared to be received and so it is in a place never to be taken away. Etched in our senses, discovered and recaptured yearly in tradition. The Greatest Gift is our gathering of spirit in oneness and praise for one another. Giving Thanks for all my Blessings. Thank you.
by Phi

top chefs give up their recipes. good stuff. Go ahead download cookbook. awesome. There are arrows at the bottom of page to click to the next page in the cookbook.

MARTHA STEWART
THANKSGIVING
DOWNLOADABLE COOKBOOK

Quotes by Phi

"Hope is having Healing Wholeness". "Hope is no longer a part of this life without Faith". "The Value of thoughts, Good, Bad or indifferent- Hope lies in between". "Nothing is a duty unless forced". "Duty calls and strikes a match, Mind on Fire- Let Me Out!" "To be of service is not a duty but a Heart Provoking Need". "Presence brings an Atmosphere that tells a story of who you are". "Let us view the meadow Light Blessing Birds in Flight." "To sure is the voice in the Dark-when Light brings Truth". "Half a glass fills my thirst". "How many times must we lose at love to understand nothing is lost."

He Is The Wind beneath My Wings

Jon Peter Our Dream Traveler. photo by Maro

Mother and Daughter

She is giving me the look of Love. She gives me a treasure.
Photo by: Perry Hagopian

Family of 3

They fill my heart. Laurel, Perry and Louis, photo by Maro

My Favorite of Lou

He is our unbrella. photo by Maro my gifted daughter, She captures the pure spirit.

don't forget to click to enlarge and then arrow back.

Healing Touch

Miracle of hands on, with love. Roseanne was in Ecstasy and full of tears of joy. I felt the same with the right intent everyone needs to be touched. It makes all the difference. I only took 1 pill Thursday and went all day without and through the night without pain. So I may have to have weekly doses of touch theraphy. haha...;Wednesday's Improv Healing Circle.

Apple Pickin, Posing in the rain

The silly family, we feed each other Love and Laughter.
I am so Blessed. photo by Laurel

Cool Cats

Tyagi, Mom Ujjala, BBKing. Look for Tyagi in "The Good Wife" as a witness, Tuesday Night at 10:00 PM. The other fellow on the end Famous guitar player Raymond.

SWEATLODGE TRAGEDY

Sweatlodge Tragedy. Sedona, for new agers. What does "New Age" mean these days? Does it imply young and the inexperenced? Covers are suppose to breathe. I doubt if tarps can breathe. 2 hours spent in the lodge can't be logical. 45 Mins with a break in between is reasonable with the right intent which is prayer, chant, cleansing & forgiveness. Paying 9,000 dollars for spiritual teaching is appauling. Is this the right intent or is it about the monetary goal? The followers need to research what they are getting into. There are cons out there even in the business of "New Age". I would advise to contact an American Indian who is experienced with sweatlodge rituals and who understands the ritual and meaning behind why people do it in the first place. One cannot learn about the spirit traditions in a couple of days. It is sad that this has happened to this cultural practice. This should be a warning to future alluring practices that promises to change your life for a price. If you don't know that your life is beautiful right now, then you're missing the mark.
After 37 years I have learned nothing new. Just different ways of saying it. Bottom line, you find what works to be within yourself. Acceptance of all that you are, whether good or bad or what you think you should change. Change happens naturally. No one knows more then anyone else when it comes to the spirit that lives, breathes and has its being.

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Deepak Chopra and Dr. Michio Kaku

I use to sound like Deepak when I was full of myself. But thank God Dr. Kaku took it to another level. Perhaps that was Deepak's intention? What do you think?

Great Song

My daughter Maro video taped this band and edited it.

Baring theTruth

Dear Hearts,
I pray in the middle of the night for you, for me. Only sadness enters and grabs my thoughts and brings me to my knees. Is it I who has lost the attention to detail. Or perhaps I never had it. I do not know anything. Only the essence of things, people and places. Its like a dream, never seeming real. But to me it is everything. Few understand me. Not even I. Like the winds of thoughts blowing through the night air. Quiet, silent poised in humility that rings the bell of truth. I am here. by phi

Quick Way To Get High

Humor is not a mood but a way of looking at the world. Ludwig Wittgenstein.

The situation is critical....but not serious. Sonia Choquette.

Just giggle and someone else will also. Your not alone when you can giggle. Phi

photo by Maro

Poppa Bear and Big Lou

That is Grandpa Harry space brother looking over them from space.

photo by Maro

Summer Ends

Awakened to be Haunted

I am inside another nightmare. Will I ever get passed these middle of the night thoughts from the past. Like a clinging crab that I am. Letting go is painful
I really cannot afford this. So how do I appease its present prompting. Breathe, Trust and Behave. Should I continue to look to the lambs of the world to show me the way to my heart? I am tired, it has been years. I may have learned very little. This is my torment. And sadness creeps in, settles like a folding meadow lark.

Shirley and Lee 1956-57 & Ray Charles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swq72KRuwUk http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oYQKjtLWl0&NR=1

MTV Music Video Awards

What has happened to MTV??? A disgrace to our human race and to music that once would last forever. Gross seems to be all they could come up with for entertainment. The MC was sickening and foul mouth. Real Creative? Not.
More like Halloween and a vision of Hell. That rude rapper, needed to get rapped upside his head. Beyonce showed some class.
Maybe it has to do with generation gap. It was not uplifting. As for Madonna who I think is great, Jackson tribute seemed all about her. I finally had to turn it off after Lady Ga Ga...who is named right. Her costumes were wild and cool. Her music and sensationalism was gag gag for sure. AND THAT'S THE TRUTHHH! Looking forward to reading what www.Glamourbrain.com site has to say.

Traveling down the highway getting my kicks

The speed is fast and I am gaining momentum. How about you? Are you getting your kicks or just waiting at the bus stop? Cheers! Happy Labor Day.

My story with Joy Housman 1998

I was 4 years into grieving and post traumatic stress flashbacks and in my memory of this emotional pain in my heart. Joy invited me to her home for a meditation.
Once again, there it was the memory of my beloved's demise, as always, a flashback. I watched without physical pain to my heart. It was the end of the pain. I always will be grateful to Joy for touching my life.
My Michigan Sister helped me to rise above. She continues to do that for me, as life goes on and on without ending. Peace.

A Prayer for Joy

I am full of sadness. We are loosing a loving friend and sister. Though we walk in the valley of tears we shall fear no evil. We are with you dearest Joy, all the days of your life forever and ever. You have blessed us with your presence here on Earth, in the circle within a circle of Love and Light. Where there is no Beginning and never ending. I Thank you so much for touching my life.
The Valley is a beautiful place where you can see God in all the glory that is in you. Peace be with you as you travel threw another passage to be born into a new life. Amen.

Brothers Tony,John,Rae,Kay,Harry,Me 1968 Mad Men

Maro's work

Video taping and editing for sirius on line.

My Friend

There is an expectancy of being together, of laughing and talking. Expectancy It is alive, dynamic and emerges together as a unique gift shared by no one else. To change it to expectations, spoken or unspoken- law and rules perform to meet expectations-friendship rapidly deteriorates-dead thing, rules and requirements.
I have no expectations of you. You never disappoint me. What I do have is a constant and living expectancy in our relationship.

from: The Shack

Verbs

I am a verb. I am that I am. I will be who I will be. I am a verb! I am alive, dynamic, everactive and moving. I am a being verb! Essences is a verb more tuned to verbs then nouns. Verbs such as confessing, repenting, living, loving, responding, growing, reaping, changing, sowing, running, dancing, singing. So there you have it. Pass it on. from: The Shack

True Relationships

True relationships are a whole lot messier than rules, but rules will never give you answers to the deep questions of the heart, and they will never love you.

Choices of the Heart

Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal.

Thomas Moore, "Come Ye Disconsolate"

Festival of Friends

You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you.

Fredrick Buechner, Telling the Truth

Linda Curcio West Palm Beach, Fl.

I finally found your photo. To put on my blog. I miss coffee at Beaumount.
Nothing is ever lost. A special place in my heart is my Bella Serella.

MORRNNING

Auntie Mame feeding baby goat

This is so precious. Louis must have been thrilled.

Weekend at the beach and Zoo

Louis feeding the goats at the zoo. Look at his face.

Good Thoughts For Louis Always

My Honey slightly fractured his arm this weekend. He fell while playing.

Jon and Old Friends

4th of July fireworks in Hunter, NY. Everyone Loves Jon. He is my Hero. A spirit with a world family he Blesses and Awakens with his touch. Always did from the day he was born. And always will.

Bella Luna Children

Reality of being prepared. I believe we are prepared all ready. We know when we are well done. We become tough as leather and few can chew what we serve. We are keeping an eye on the Lamb. We are looking for a home. The opposition is pitching only challenges but we keep missing the mark. So what if we give up? It is not in us to give up. Fear of the unknown keeps us alert to the possiblities there is more. That is our only Hope. So buy me some peanuts and cracker jacks I don't care if I ever get back. Happy Birthday 2009, Barbara, Moira, Bobbi, Lydia, Lynnie, Ruthie..and Me. Let me know who I missed. Another old friend, Linda Nordquist and another Kathy Hayes. There are a lot of us around. June is busting out all over.

Time Out!

This is Louis's time out. He looks pretty cozy comfortable if you ask me. I think he will like having time outs. Whenever he gets bold, he is over tired.

Me and Giani

I put this photo up until Giani sends me the ones of us with fireworks behind us.
She is beautiful, caring, generous and very kind to her Mother in law. I love her dearly.

Rain brings Rainbows

I have never seen a rainbow with so many different colors. Usually 3 at the most. But this one had red, orange, yellow, green, blue, lavender. Blessings.

Grams and Lou

1st day of camp in his blue swim shirt. Swim trunks under shorts. Grams was so nervous about leaving him there. When we picked him up he had such an exciting day, he never stopped till he went to bed. He loved it. Made a new friend Sabastian.

Dancing in the Rain

Singing in the rain. What a wonderful feeling I am happy again. Smile on my face. Happy refrain. Might as well accept the watery days of summer. Try it. Singing and Dancing in the Rain. Very freeing. Honky Tonk Parade.

We string along Side by Side

Improv Healing Circle found Tory next door to the waiting room, in Roger's hospital room. We sang "Side by Side" to him and with him. He blessed us with his tears.
Our wonderful women took me to dinner in Afghanistan. They Sang Happy Birthday to me. I felt like a little girl. With the candle burning in the homemade ice cream. This has been a wonderful unforgettable Birthday 2009.
I thank you for how you bless me and make me feel so special. When that is how I feel about them. We are the Earth Angels who bring smiles, tears and music to the center of our circle of Love.
Barbara, Pat, Phyllis, Bobby, Moira, Tory and I.

CANCER IS A FUNGUS

The time has come where all things hidden will be uncovered. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ri-C8VvF3Rs watch and stay open.
Dr. Tullio Simoncini , Rome, Italy.

Our Improv Healing circle

Pat, Phyllis, Bobbie, Moira, Philly and Barbara Sarah. Tory is missing.

Yankee Memories

After my Alien Night writing. I remembered our last Improv.visit to Benedictine Hospital. Vinnie was empty and distressed and in pain. He could not even hold hands with us. Then someone said, "what is on your mind Vinnie?" "Baseball Maybe?" His eyes lite up and he begin to shine with the Yankee memories. No pain, no misery. Just delight as he sang along with us. Barbara, Phyllis, Bobbie, Pat, Moira, Me and Vinnie and Vinnie Jr. "TAKE ME OUT TO THE BALL GAME". It was the most satisfying experience for Vinnie and all of us. We brought him back into his passion and his prayer center. Our human feelings are everywhere. I have been watching the Yankee's ever since. Win or lose its how we play the game.
Thanks Vinnie

Talkin to myself

Once again, restless, itchy and an emptiness. Haven't seen my Grandson in a month. No one to show my love to. Need to let it out. To much hibernation and rain. Soon it will be hot. To hot to handle and to hibernate will begin once again. I suppose I will never grow up without the need to be more then one. So I will wait and try not to be alone. One is the loneliest number I don't care what the Guru's say. Music tells the whole story. Without the emotion and the passion we are no longer human.
Alien Nights.

Louis's Tooth Loss and Gain

5.00 dollars, inflation. I think I received a quarter. Now he can buy his own toys.

Here is lively louis

Deserves a blog site show. He is sporting a missing tooth. This

can be bigger. click on it.

Diana and Daughter Nina

See Barbara in background. Survivors dinner, 2009

Mount St. Alphonsus

I was alone and walked into this church and my heart jumped at the beauty before me. I felt I was home. My roots came to the surface and my eyes filled with tears from the memory of the spirit that was born in me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2uYrmYXsujI

Inez and I

At the train station. Inez taking a train to Florida to see her son. Train a coming

A Couple of Spice Girls

Diana the Hiker, Philly the Biker, together we get Higher.

Don't let the smiles fool you, we are two mean fighting machines.

Ellen and Mia

It was nice seeing you back Ellen and your craziness is needed

Moons Flickering Light

Oh you crazy moon. You broke my heart. What is there to say. How will I ever pull through. Contentment and home meant just you. Only words to a song. My old romantic self is calling. feelings tap on my shoulder letting me know it is still there. An Indian scarve tied over head for full battle. Scared the hell out of me, that I was losing a good friend. I lost many and much of myself; Who knows me now? I am covered up and unable to care in the same way. So my only hope is I can tranform and expand it to all...and live my true self on my true path. That is my only hope.

MARO AND ADAM

My daughter Maro Photographer and Adam from Idol.

Thursday Mornings Smart Bells Class

laurie, Lee, Kay,Pat, Diana, Me and Ujjala. We look like a Motley Crew.

Memorial Day Weekend

"Louis loves his Uncle Jonny. He was so delighted to learn we were all Hagopian's like him. "He yelled out with a gleeful voice, "I have a big family.'
click on photo, check his face out.

Celebration time

CONGRATULATIONS TO MEGAN on her Masters in Social Work. "I heard it through the Grapevine"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fiuMUubhASI&feature=related watch They use to say I looked and acted like Martha Raye. Have fun.

ANNOUNCEMENT

"IN THE HEIGHTS" which is playing on Broadway right now. "In the Heights: Chasing Broadway Dreams documentary, directed by Paul Bozymowski, will air Wednesday May 27th at 8:00 PM on PBS. My friend Marta's Son. I am thrilled for him. Congratulations Paul. From the Hagopian clan. We are looking forward to seeing it. Thanks Uncle Ray. I had it marked. Now I have it posted.
Love and Light. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PjplS0UwwA P.S. Chasing Broadway Dreams Documentary is up for a Tony Award. Congratulations Paul Bozymowski.

Mother's Day 2009

Louis on our nature walk. He holds a dandelion and spins it between his fingers. Grandma's nature boy.

May day, may day

MRI of Head today. Accepting good thoughts and prayers.
My kids go away for Mother's Day and they buy themselves presents for their Birthdays. haha I guess we taught them well. To be a rebel and independant of the status quo. I am very proud of them.

APRIL 30, 2009

My little girl's Birthday. Celebrating with a smile back when she had long naturally curly hair. She was showing me her funny ways and her special hands in this photo. "Picture this".

Friendly Challenges

When it is real it is real. There are no doubts. If there are doubts, it is because it is for, a far greater reason. One knows inside, it will make you or break you somehow. But it won't. It is only an illusion, the ego, is the fearful one.

Dream May Day

Golden Light came to my site and laid upon my chest. It was the most natural thing to feel the flight of Angel wings embraced. Then it was my turn and I laid my head upon the golden Light and said "I missed you". It brought me peace in that moment. I was home.

Nicolas Jon Der Hagopian

He turned 12 years old on the 20th of April. I watched him play baseball yesterday. I was watching my son Jon all over again. Talk about the strangest feeling in the world. He has the same actions, poses, movements, stance, swing. I was reliving my son all over again. Not to mention, Jon's smile and dimples. This was a first for me. What Joy, Such Joy. I have been Blessed.

did not make it to see Louis

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xe5w0_ray-charles-jerry-lee-lewis
This is my kind of piano playing.

Weekend in Long Island

Cannot wait another Day to see Luigi. Nicolas turned 12 years old the 20th. where does the time go? Louis at the Beach in the Hamptons. We could see Seals sitting on a piece of land in the Bay.

Easter Sunday, with Aunt Jen and Eric, koo koo, Louis is the star of finding eggs